i have been in bed since Thursday afternoon... that is soooo gross! i can't believe that it's already Saturday night! I need to get some answers this week, I really don't know how much longer I can live like this! It is really quite pathetic!
Matt is coming home from VA tonight, its been a lonely week without him :(
Jon doesn't come home from work until 2-4am, so I usually spend my evenings with Matt... he's my food and drug enforcement, and one of the only people who can get me to eat... this week has been the worst in a while, and it was tough having no one here.
is it odd that I spend more time with my childhood sweetheart/best friend than with my boyfriend?? I guess I'm lucky that they get along so well!! Things like this have caused so many issues in my past relationships... I've always felt like having "guy" friends always ended up being more of a punishment than an asset... but it's funny that they are the friends I've had the longest! Jeez, I've known Matt for 27 years!!! These boys knew me when I climbed trees and worshipped military drill... They have been with me through some very rough patches in my life, and helped me when no one else could... Its nice to finally be in a relationship with someone who really LIKES my "guys".
I have so much to get done this week... the thought of it all is quite overwhelming...especially considering I have a two minute memory span lately... all I do is walk around saying "what am i doing?" "where was i going?" Its BAD! I forget what I'm talking about mid sentence, and have almost NO concept of time anymore...
....breathe....
ok, Im better now...
I love that I can add music to this blog... I'm sorry to all those that it might annoy!! There's a control at the top of the screen where you can change the song or turn it off...
I LOVE music!! I love songs that have lyrics that can rip your heart out... I know that sounds a little depressing... but I don't see it that way, I just look at it as being very "real".
wow... a blog might end up being very dangerous for me!! I can babble and blab to myself all night long :)
ok.... these are to inspire sweet dreams, g'night!
vin and bam <3
